Don't need an answer just an opinion?

I come on here regularly and do my best to help people with problems, mostly in the category of mental health. I have had some answers chosen as best answer and I find it gratifying. I choose the mental health category because I suffer from depression like so many others and post traumatic stress disorder. I have been told by every doctor I see that I have seen and been through too much yet I am able to come up with a solution to some one else's problems easier than my own. Not only that, I know what I have to do to cope with all of it. Yet, the motivation is not there. I tend to listen very carefully when my issue is being discussed. I am becoming so aware of what happens during depression; the anxiety, fatigue, lack of motivation, lack of interest, constant suicide thoughts. I recognize it within myself but just cannot seem to get over it. I take anti depressants, see a psychologist weekly, attend support groups, you name I'll do it to get past this.Could it be that I am not applying myself enough? I also read that if Ptsd has gone on too long without treatment, then the patient will not respond well to treatment. This came as a hard blow. I have had it for over 15 years. Could it be that the issues I need to deal with are buried deep in my subconscious making things that much more difficult to deal with? At times I feel like an atm, fully operational but yet no transactions. Its stuff like that that bothers me the most. I am aware of it but thats as far as it gets! What are your thoughts? Sorry for it being so long.